2003-02-19 - 10:18 p.m.
2003-02-19 - 10:18 p.m.
i am scared.
very scared.
i can't eat anything anymore. at first it was because i felt so amazingly happy.
now it is because i have this incredible emptiness in my stomach. it actually hurts. physically.
i have lost 12 pounds in 6 days.
i am so confused.
the only thing i can think to do is sleep. but i wake up and it is still there. and then i have to go to work, and i can't concentrate. i get up and take walks outside, and that doesn't help.
things aren't bad i guess. i don't know.
i don't even want to talk about them.
i just keep thinking of not being here anymore, but that's the easy way out.
maybe i'll follow my heart for once.
goodbye, snow.