2005-05-19 - 12:04 a.m.
2005-05-19 - 12:04 a.m.
my life is lame.
i live alone with 2 cats, and drink alone pretty much every night. i find everyone i meet to be incredibly boring, and wonder why it seems like i used to occasionally meet interesting people. was i just lying to myself? did they suck dick too?
i'm also gradually losing any hope that i will meet an attractive female companion that shares my interests.
i always knew i was into some weird shit, but i didn't think i was that out there. i guess i was wrong!
my car has been broken for almost 3 months now, and i just don't care. it sits out in the back of my building, and every couple of weeks when someone asks me what i am doing this weekend, i'll say "oh, going to try to get my car fixed!", even though i know i won't.
i went to the supermarket today for the first time in over a month. but i had to take the train home, so i could only buy a few things, like peanut butter (crunchy!), and fake chicken patties.
i've recently been thinking about dying more often than i would like. everything seems so pointless again. not that i ever really thought anything ever had a point, but for a while enough shit was going on that i was able to ignore it.
so tell me again, when is this going to end?