2004-09-30 - 3:46 a.m.
2004-09-30 - 3:46 a.m.
I AM INCREDIBLY BORING!
the only thing i do these days is work. which i guess is okay, since i wouldn't be doing much anyways. other than sleeping.
i don't have dreams anymore. i don't know why. i go through these long periods where i will dream so intensely (and absurdly), and then it just kind of stops. it's disappointing when it does. i like having dreams.
the fall is making me sad again. it's strange, i love the cold air, and the leaves changing colors, and getting runny noses, and the smell in the air, and most of the other things about the fall. or autumn, if that's your thing. it reminds me of being 13 and it's a sunday and it's blustery and i'm outside playing football in the street. but it gets dark so early, and everyone seems to eat early on sundays. i go inside and i wash my hands and they tingle because they are cold and the water is warm. my house smells like meatloaf, and i hate meatloaf. my house os cold, my mother never seems to get cold and is one of the cheapest people in the universe, so she never turns the heat on. i go to sit in my room, which is even colder, because it doesn't have any heat at all. i have homework to do, but the tv is on too loud. i hate americas funniest home videos. i take a shower even though i don;t want to, because i know it will make me cold because my hair will be wet. the meatloaf is disgusting as usual. and peas. from a can. who likes peas? not me. it's windy outside and there is a draft. my toes are cold, i'm wearing two pairs of socks. i don't want to go to school tomorrow. the days are too long, and the classes are boring. and the week hasn't even started yet. i hate putting my wet head down on a cold pillow.
i just want it to snow.