2002-08-07 - 1:19 a.m.
2002-08-07 - 1:19 a.m.
raindrops fall and splatter on my window. its dark outside, but the streetlights are coming in through my blinds. its the summer, but it feels cold outside. i can hear a cd skipping in my head, but i cant change the track. i dont really mind it though. im laying in a hotel room talking on the phone, but im not aware of anything i am saying. a movie is on tv but i just hear static. the lights are on, but everythins seems dim. i think im asleep but i keep talking. i realize i dont know the person on the other end of the phone, but that doesnt seem to bother me. i just keep thinking of how it was nice when your breath smelled like bubble gum. sometimes there arent any words for how i feel, and so i feel like my life is on big metaphor. metaphorically speaking. its foggy outside, and i am walking down the middle of the main street, but there aren't any cars around. its surreal, but i don't notice. i watch the traffic lights change, but noone sees it happening. even during the day. it just happens, and noone notices. everyhting is kind of wet. i take out a marker and i write something on a mailbox, but it doesnt really come out. i don't remember what i wrote anyways. i walk to the train station where i used to sit to wait to go to work. the train doesn't come, as it is 3 or 4 or 5 am. i remember eating popcorn outside, and drinking grape soda. i don't really like grape soda. but it was one of those nights i suppose. i walked to your house and i put a web safe color poster in your door, because you are my best friend, and i do things like that to show you i care. i walk some more and i forget where i am going. i see a cat, and i walk over to pet him and he runs away. that makes me really sad for some reason. im all alone watching the sun rise. i brought my camera to take a picture to show you because i thought you would care. i just wished you were there with me, laughing, and looking at me with hazel eyes. it was muggy, but i didnt care.