2002-11-04 - 2:18 a.m.
2002-11-04 - 2:18 a.m.
hmmm. i suppose i have't updated in 12 days.
it really doesn't seem that long.
oh well.
i don't know how i have been.
okay i suppose.
i stopped speaking to my best friend. well my ex-bestfriend as it is now. she still calls me and tells me how much she misses me and how sad she is.
but i wasn't the mean one. she made a choice and has to deal with the consequences.
i haven't cut myself in about three weeks. the cuts on my arm were a lot deeper than i originally thought, because theyre still red and noticable. and i heal very quickly, 3 weeks is usually more than enough time for little cuts to go away.
i suppose they weren't that little.
my mother saw my arm again the other day when i was putting on my sweathsirt.
"those scratches on your arm haven't gone away yet."
"yes, i know mom, they're called SCARS, and they don't go away."
bleh.
i really should be better at updating this.
but who am i kidding, i'm not. it's enough work to get out of bed every day. especially when your room doesn't have heat.
i am going to go to bed now.
sorry this isn't more interesting.