2002-08-12 - 3:24 a.m.
2002-08-12 - 3:24 a.m.
you asked to see my scars. you said you would show me yours too.
i'm not sure if it was a good idea. i think i have a lot. compared to most people. i don't really know what the standard is. you said you felt stupid showing me yours because i have so many more. but you shouldn't feel bad at all. whether you have one tiny scar you gave yourself, or a lot of big ones, the pain is still the same. the blood is just as red, and the hurt is still as intense.
you said they made you feel bad because you wished you could have done something to make me feel less of that pain. that was very sweet of you.
i am afraid to meet someone new. who doesn't know about this side of me. and having to expose myself for the scarred mess that i am. i hope it doesn't ruin anything special.
it probably will.